Shattering

I feel so fucking horrible. I’d really like to be oblivious right now….Because nothing is a more hurtful feeling than something bad is going on that will take you a long time to get over and having no power to stop it.

It sucks so bad when at first you knew the rules, you know nothing good lasts. I knew what would happen, I said it would and then said I wouldn’t let it this time.

“I’ll always be here for you.”  ”You can never go away, because I won’t let you… I’m attached now”

Both just a few of the things she told me…

Why was I a sucker and believe there was any chance of either to be true?

Because everything is falling apart and I can’t fix it, and it isn’t because I don’t try. I try and I try and get the same results. It’s getting so hard to pretend that I’m ok. 

“You’re still young, Jarrett.” Yeah, I know that and it wasn’t my intention on looking for anyone.